Speaking softly when I want to SCREAM

 

 

Mondays are a challenge.  I'm already not a morning person, and somehow I figured that when I started working from home the Monday "thing" would be different. But it's NOT.  Somehow I'm convinced my minions know that its Monday and their dad won't be home until late and so they decide to challenge as many things as possible...before 9am.

 

While they're both napping right now (a miracle in and of itself) I scanned the living room to count no fewer than 3 sippy cups, an entire emptied basket of dog toys, and enough toys to stock an FAO Schwartz (does that store still exist??)

 

Maybe I should be taking these few precious quiet minutes to tidy up or be otherwise productive but I'm going to take at least 5 to relax and drink some diet coke...my guilty pleasure. And why? Because I need those 5 minutes to help me recharge my patience so I can remember to speak softly, be patient, and treat my these little souls God has entrusted me to care for with the love and kindness they deserve.

 

Being a mom is hard.  Being a mom on Monday is harder.

 

If you have any tips for avoiding the Mondays I'd love to hear them!

And the Money "Woes" Came Quickly

 

 

I knew that learning to balance our new (significantly smaller) budget would be a challenge. I just did not realize that it would be happen during my first technical week back from maternity leave to WAHM status. 

 

The reality is I had been spending money while on unpaid maternity leave the same as I did when we had two incomes, burning away at my savings month after month. So tonight when I looked at my checking account to research some other information I was scared, horrified, surprised to see my balance. 

 

We've never worried about money before and now we need to share more of our finances, make financial decisions together, and I basically needed to ask for money. This is new to me. I had/have prided myself on being fiercely independent and now I need to turn to my husband for help. Wow, what a harsh kick to my ego, right?

But why should it be?  We're a team right? One family, common goals? After years of marriage I just realized I have not been looking at the financial part of our relationship as being a member of a team. Sure we accomplished the common goals, but I wasn't going about getting there with a true "we're in this together" mentality. Yikes.

 

Ok, but I don't need to freak out yet, right???

 

And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

 

This new venture is really going to be a test.  A test of our marriage, a test of my ability to let go of my desire to control everything, a test of my faith, and a test of our ability to simplify our lives to accomplish our common goals.

 

I'm sure I am going to sleep really well with all of this weighing on my mind, and since I haven't seen "Frozen" I probably won't "Let it Go" but I have work in the morning, and after that quick job I have my little minions that need me, love me and trust me...even if I don't trust myself.

 

 

 

Tomorrow

Tomorrow, April 6, 2015 starts the first day on my new journey as work at home mom (WAHM) with two kids under two years old.

It was after a great deal of prayer and contemplation that I, with the support of my dear husband (DH) left my job of over 9 years to work from home and care for our boys.

I'm hopeful that with a great deal of faith, hope, love...and LOTS of coffee I will find a way to balance family and work with some humor along the way.