Working as a WAHM

Generally all the work I do is writing,  at home, at night. Today I agreed to venture into the public for a friend and handle a matter for her.

So here are my thoughts as I'm waiting:
1. I haven't worn heels in a long time. My feet hurt

2. How long will it be before I mess up and introduce myself incorrectly based on my prior job?

3. Why am I so nervous?!?!

Getting out of the house was hard. Monkey kept crying saying "no work mama, no work!"  I know this is for the best. This is part of how my new life looks. But still...butterflies.

And the Money "Woes" Came Quickly

 

 

I knew that learning to balance our new (significantly smaller) budget would be a challenge. I just did not realize that it would be happen during my first technical week back from maternity leave to WAHM status. 

 

The reality is I had been spending money while on unpaid maternity leave the same as I did when we had two incomes, burning away at my savings month after month. So tonight when I looked at my checking account to research some other information I was scared, horrified, surprised to see my balance. 

 

We've never worried about money before and now we need to share more of our finances, make financial decisions together, and I basically needed to ask for money. This is new to me. I had/have prided myself on being fiercely independent and now I need to turn to my husband for help. Wow, what a harsh kick to my ego, right?

But why should it be?  We're a team right? One family, common goals? After years of marriage I just realized I have not been looking at the financial part of our relationship as being a member of a team. Sure we accomplished the common goals, but I wasn't going about getting there with a true "we're in this together" mentality. Yikes.

 

Ok, but I don't need to freak out yet, right???

 

And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

 

This new venture is really going to be a test.  A test of our marriage, a test of my ability to let go of my desire to control everything, a test of my faith, and a test of our ability to simplify our lives to accomplish our common goals.

 

I'm sure I am going to sleep really well with all of this weighing on my mind, and since I haven't seen "Frozen" I probably won't "Let it Go" but I have work in the morning, and after that quick job I have my little minions that need me, love me and trust me...even if I don't trust myself.

 

 

 

IV Coffee - yes, please.

We made it, Day 1 as a WAHM was a success. 

Well, I suppose it matters how you define success.  At about 8am I tried to use Blogger on my phone and could not, for the life of me, remember the password I had created less than 12 hours prior. 

Mom brain!

It is almost 9pm and everyone is asleep. We managed to play outside, go to the library, and eat fairly well-balanced meals.  Mine included beer and Monkey gnawed on a lemon...but the rest was well balanced. Toddlers are weird.

Fortunately we have a grandma here visiting so I'm going to take advantage of that and get some cleaning done.  Hopefully something more exciting will happen in the next few days.

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I jinxed it.  The Colonel (the baby) is awake again. 

Wouldn't it be ideal if you could have an IV drip of coffee hooked up and ready to go at 6am to get a jump start on the day?

Tomorrow

Tomorrow, April 6, 2015 starts the first day on my new journey as work at home mom (WAHM) with two kids under two years old.

It was after a great deal of prayer and contemplation that I, with the support of my dear husband (DH) left my job of over 9 years to work from home and care for our boys.

I'm hopeful that with a great deal of faith, hope, love...and LOTS of coffee I will find a way to balance family and work with some humor along the way.